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I Got This…

May 24, 2013 · 1 Comment

…or so I thought.

These past several days, I have been kicking butt around the house. The house has remained cleaned, the kids’ toys haven’t been scattered everywhere, the dog and kids have been fed (yes, sometimes I forget to feed them… well maybe just the dog), the kids haven’t been permanently stationed in front of the TV, and I’ve managed to do all the other miscellaneous things that make my obsessive-compulsive (in a good way) husband happy. Life has been good.

For the first time since I became a stay-at-home mom, over 2 years ago, I finally felt like I had this whole stay-at-home mom and housewife thing down.

And then last night happened.

It was if the girls had some sort of alarm go off that told them to act up and ruin mommy’s high.

I’m not going to go into detail but by the end of the night my patience had been drained. I was defeated.

The feeling of being on top of the world and feeling like supermom had completely subsided as I lay in bed wondering what I had done to cause the girls to behave like this.

After things had quieted down and I was able to enjoy the silence of the night, I prayed. That’s when I realized that moments like these are inevitable.

We are only human. We are not perfect. We’re meant to have moments like these. Not to bring us down, but to build us up and make us stronger, better people.

It’s so much easier to get upset and yell than it is to be patient, understanding and take the time to explain and teach. Because anyone with a toddler knows, you can’t just tell them once. It’s more like a gazillion times and even then, it’s not a guarantee that they’ll understand or listen for the next time.

But as their mother, I at least owe it to them to try.

I am their biggest role model and they look to me for guidance. As much as I hate to admit it, they got their bad behaviors from someone and considering I’m the closest person to them, I can’t deny the possibility that some of those negative behaviors were learned from me.

I’m always telling Paul that I don’t believe there are ‘bad kids’ only bad parents, particularly when it comes to younger kids who clearly need guidance.

Everything I do I’d like to do with intention, especially when it comes to parenting. Each moment can be used a learning experience, not only for the girls, but for me as well.

So while I experienced a bump in the road, I know that today is a new day and another opportunity to do things right and to parent intentionally.

28 Week Bumpdate

May 19, 2013 · 24 Comments

I am SuperMom! Or at least that’s who I dressed up as today.

To be honest, I went to sleep at 4 am last night (or shall I say this morning) because today was the girls’ superhero-themed birthday party. The permanent smiles on their faces throughout the day made the hustle and bustle of prepping all day yesterday worth it!

I was up at 7am, skipped breakfast, had a few bites for lunch, half a burrito for dinner and I have no idea why I’m wide awake at 10pm.

Baby Parquer is kicking up a storm right now and I’m not really looking forward to sleeping. I have the worst pelvic pain while I’m lying down that I actually dread bedtime.

This past week I completed my 3-hr glucose test and wanted to yack from the sugary concoction. I have an appointment with my OB this week and I’ll find out my results. Keeping my fingers crossed that I passed!

For those of you wondering how the party went, it was a HUGE success! I will try and post pictures soon.

Tomorrow is the girls’ actual birthday and I plan to shower them with my love and affection. If I’m not too beat by the end of the day, I’ll try and edit their birthday party pics.